Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Milo

He will be nine in February. One video clip shows him haltingly climbing stairs and flashing a peace sign. Another captures a grin as he surprises the viewer with carefully worked arithmetic sums. We have known of his life for only 9 months, yet he has been waiting for a family for nearly 9 years. And next month, three of us will travel to China and return as four. Milo is coming home.

And...yes, I know. I have thought of each and every -- every -- scary scenario you might have imagined after reading the words above.  And...yes. I know this won't be anything like our experiences in bringing home a baby or toddler. And...yes. I am afraid. If I didn't truly believe that the God of the universe didn't have a plan for this child's life, then I would stay beside my woodstove with a stack of library books and a safe plan for the remaining days of winter. Because none of this is safe and tidy. And I love safe and tidy. We weren't planning on this. Yet, here we are, laughing that the most scripted of all ventures -- an international adoption -- is our "surprise pregnancy." And...yes. I have thought about the impact on the children in my home. I don't know what the future holds. But, this I do know. Five children have saved up chore money, helped build him a bed, learned some basic Mandarin, gathered favorite toys and made space in their rooms, in their hearts, for a kiddo they have yet to meet. I am aware that he is already having an impact on them. And I am so grateful.

On February 11, we will fly to Beijing, bringing with us our Monte. At fourteen, he is looking me in the eye these days, and we are thrilled that Milo will first learn from him what brother means. Our bags are half-packed -- medications (that we pray we won't need), comfort foods, Monte's balloon-tying supplies, the start of our stack of books, including Chinese Cinderella by A. Yen Mah, The Crunch-Time Guide to Parenting Language for Chinese Adoption by LaMons & Diggins, and  The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom. I don't feel ready, and yet...I feel like we have been waiting for this day for years.

I wasn't thirty when we first applied to adopt internationally. We had planned, so long ago, to adopt from China. And, yet, my age was an issue...I was too young. As that door closed, Vietnam opened, and our MyLinh entered our lives and hearts. She will be nine this year. And ever since we first said "yes" to China, Milo has been waiting. Finally, we are on our way.

12 comments:

Mark and Sarah said...

Wow, that last sentence gave me the chills...like he's been waiting for you the last nine years. I can't wait to watch your stories unfold. Praying for you!

Amber said...

Looking forward to meeting Milo. We love you all so much. Praying for safe travels for you and your family.

-J & family

Doug and Erika said...

Sweet, sweet post. I am so excited to meet my newest nephew! Love to you all!

Rachael Harvey said...

Thank you for sharing and being so real about your fear and gratitude. We have been praying for you and will continue to pray for you. ♥

Laura said...

Love you all..your hearts and your journey. Praying you there and Milo home. Much love...xoxoxox

Anonymous said...

Beautifully said...so excited that Monte will be there with you and for Milo. The LORD's presence will be with as many hearts at home. WELCOME, Milo! Love, the Grigels

Anonymous said...

God has us all in His palm. You, your precious littles (and not-so-littles), and Milo. All together. Prayers and love to you! Jeanne & UmBob

Ann said...

I am crying and laughing all at once. Milo is coming HOME! And yes, it would be so much "safer" to stay by your wood stove and read library books but I love how you are running right along with the fear--towards GOD and MILO! Can't wait to follow along and see your sweet boy in your arms! And just as a reminder, our Anna who filled me with such fear in those first few months in terms of her needs, she has been the easiest child to transition into our family and she is pure JOY!

Anonymous said...

We love how you capture our hearts with your words. Because of you, our hearts have made room for another grandchild, and we love him already. momtoo & Papa B.

Anonymous said...

Alex & Riann

Look so forward to meeting Milo, can't wait to start reading your blog, Riann your words are always so beautiful and and full of the love you have for the Lord, what a special family you are and Milo will be so blessed to be part of it.

Anita

susan said...

So did you compose this post before my comment or after?! Either way, it makes me so happy that you are once again sharing this journey with those of us left behind, waiting anxiously to meet your new son. Hope he likes corndogs!

Anonymous said...

Ah Friend, such sweet honest words!! We are praying too, can't wait to follow on your journey across to Milo!

The Taylor Six